Overcoming Obesity

Monday, March 7, 2011

Week one weigh in, 307 pounds. I've lost 5 lbs, woo-hoo!

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Another day under the belt, 1199 calories. Getting it done!

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Atkins Day 3

Another good day!

Calories: 1331
Carbs: 66g
Fat: 76 g
Protien: 123g

Okay, for the first time I have been tracking my food on Sparkpeople. I don't care for it. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE me some SPARK however I have always logged my calories on my iGoogle account through fatloser.com. When I did that, I had a complete breakdown of what I was eating including fiber, sodium, etc. The site also allowed me to enter and save recipes and custom meals. It really was helpful. I am going to finish the rest of this week up with Spark nutrition and then move back to fatloser.com.

Surprisingly enough, it has not been too challenging sticking to low carb which REALLY surprises but of course, you're not getting any complaints out of me!

I also wanted to give a big shout out to everyone tonight for your continued support!

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Day 2

Another successful day! I had a lot going on today so it was super busy. I got home from work about 5:45 pm. I have an ongoing commitment on Tuesday nights and I have to leave home around 6:20 to make it on time. I didn't have a lot of time to cook, so I just whipped up some breakfast food for dinner. I got home around 9:30 tonight and I cooked dinner for tomorrow (another commitment on Wednesday night).

Today, I went to lunch with a few colleagues and let me tell you, eating low carb at lunch was not difficult. I ordered a salad with meat. WOW, super easy. I was even able to turn down the bread and chips and dip.

Here is my intake today:

Calories: 1292
Carbs: 41 g
Fat: 99 g
Protein: 91 g

Two eggs scrambled with tomato, jalapeno and sausage

Salad topped with Steak and blue cheese dressing

Three eggs scrambled with tomato, jalapeno and sausage

2 Pickles
2 Celery Stalks with pimento cheese
1 Mozzarella String Cheese

Monday, February 28, 2011

Atkins Day 1

Okay, day one of Atkins was a success. I was surprised my calorie count was under 1500 calories, but I am thrilled it was!

Calories: 1403
Carbs: 48 grams (no food not on approved list
Fat: 109 grams
Protien: 71 grams

Two eggs scrambled with one sausage patty, half a jalepeno and tomatto.
Coffee with 1 tbsp cream and two equal packets.

Salad (Iceberg Lettuce, Spinach, Radish, Cucumber, Green Olives; two tbsp of mozz cheese) with 3 pieces of bacon and 2 tbsp of Bluecheese dressing.

Salad (Iceberg Lettuce; Spinach)topped with Flank steak that was cooked with jalepeno, tomatto and brocolli and 2 tbsp of Ranch dressing.

Celery with pimento cheese and cream cheese
Two pickles
String Cheese

Here is a sneak peak at my dinner salad, oh my goodness was it YUMMY!!!
A new day one! Weighed in at 312 (-2 even with binge) and beginning Atkins today. I'm not going to do it permanently just getting a jump start. Thanks Momma & Dawn!!!

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Make a choice

So, day 1 last week was a success and everyday since then has been a disaster. I've been on a binge for a few days now. It's crazy because I know what I want and I am doing exactly the opposite. Eating whatever I can get my hands on. It's the same self destructive behavior that I have been putting upon myself for years.

I know I need to change, I know it would benefit my health but in the moment, I don't care about anything else other than eating. This evening I am going to sit down and go through my bank account to look at the money I have wasted buying fast food. Hopefully that will help kick things in gear.

It scares me that I am back in a place of thinking about what I want and doing nothing about it. What is the problem? Clearly, I know the problem lays within myself, that I am not actually committing to making a change but WHY do I keep doing this to myself? I am falling back into a place of feeling no hope for "changing." The other day, I even reasoned with myself, this is who I am just meant to be.

How ridiculous, sure I am meant to be me, my personality, my quirkiness, my attitude and outlook... but a size, a weight doesn't equal a person. Why am I trying to reason that being overweight is just part of me? It isn't I am overweight because of the food choices that I make. It's not necessarily the food choice itself, it is the AMOUNT I choose to eat and the lack of exercise. I know these things yet I still eat, eat and eat. I've got to get out of this cloud, through this fog and back to a healthy reality. I do not want to be this person who constantly thinks of food or the next meal. Food does not define me yet it makes up most of my time, whether that is in thoughts or consumption. Food consumes my thoughts these days. My addiction. My love. My friend. My enemy. My source of energy. My lack of energy. My existence. My disease. My lover. My obsession. My confusion. My faith. My end of existence. MY CHOICE. Make a choice, make a choice, make a choice!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Day 2 - Not a huge success, 2800 calories today. Tomorrow is a new day, the journey continues!

Monday, February 21, 2011

Day 1

Okay, today is my day 1. It wasn't easy but I ate healthy and after counting my calories, I ate 1361 today. I was hoping to stay closer to 1100 but hey, that is great considering I have been eating up to 6000 a day! ERrrrrRrrr, I don't even want to think it.

I am focusing on my mantra last year "I want to be healthy!" One meal at a time, one day at a time. I can do this!

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Reality Check

314 pounds... that is my reality. I am crippling my spirit and my body. I find it difficult to move around, I have no energy, I just want to sit in front of the TV but mostly, I want to EAT and EAT and EAT and EAT some more.

Just five months ago, I was on top of the world, I was changing my life and taking control of my food addiction. I exercised nearly everyday for 9 months and ate healthy foods and counted calories. I went from 330 pounds to 268 pounds, I was winning the race. And look at me now, even quicker than I lost it, I am nearly back to my start race. I claimed that I would never do that again, and here I sit... 314 pounds. My feet hurt, my body is swollen, clothes do not fit me and I am miserable.

I have this deep rooted weed within myself that I am watering with food. Its as if there is nothing that can satisfies its hunger.

I tell myself, I can do it again but in reality, if you do nothing, nothing will happen. I can not continue down this path. I must regain control and get this weed out of me. It is killing me.

I remember at one point last year that I knew I'd win the race but today I ask myself how do I get back to the track. I feel so lost.

I sat down and looked at the differences between now and then and honestly, I am not doing anything but EATING. I stopped SPARKING and Blogging in roughly September last year and well, there went my accountability. Slowly but surely, I went a week without a workout, then two and well it was over a month, then I tried it and I was exhausted, I didn't cook so I bought fast food, and craved ice cream and brought that in the house and never stopped. All of my healthy choices were at wayside.

I can not stand here and watch everything go with the tide. I must stand up and fight for my health. This isn't just about weight, this is my life and my health on the line.

When I began my journey last year, I didn't have a plan other than blogging. Before you knew it, I was involved and committed to changing my life. So today, I commit again. Blogging was a great accountability factor for me. I know the things I need to do but I keep making excuses not to do them. Hopefully, as I blog, I can work some of these things out.

To a new Day one!

Monday, January 3, 2011

Ready, Get Set, GO!

I am proud to blog that I got up this morning and did a 1 mile walk with Leslie Sansone, I just love that woman. I took my lunch, pre-planned, cooked, weighed and measured. I walked the stairs ten times at work (ouchie mamma!) and then hit up Curves this evening. It is a strong start to the new year.

I was going to just do my Walk away the Pounds tape but I had the energy and needed the burn. It felt good, very good!

I was doing a little research last night and was blown away when I found out that I had hiked, biked and walked 479 miles last year! WOW! Of course, that does not include everyday walking, that was simply me on a mission to exercise. I was dumbfounded that I was capable of so much. The crazy thing, I quit working out mid September, imagine what I could have done if I had not quit. Well, that is water under the bridge. One think I know for sure, it motivated me to get up and move more than you can imagine!

My goal is to hit 600 miles in 2011, that is only 50 miles month... I can do this! Will you join me for the adventure?