Initially, I really tried to eat healthy, as the weeks passed, I order a bigger steak, added cheese, ate fried foods and asked for extra gravy. I also wasn't sleeping very well which of course, does not help your metabolism.
I made it back to Dallas around midnight on 9/3. I was pretty exhausted because I was living on about 9 hours of sleep for the entire week. When I got home, I vegged out with my son for an hour and then hit the sack. We ran errands all day on Saturday and ate out for lunch and dinner. Sunday, we enjoyed a BBQ at my sisters house, it was great spending time with the family. On my way home, I stopped at the store and got some groceries. I was ready to cook healthy meals and get back on track.
Monday morning, I weighed myself
Oh my goodness, I gained 7 pounds in 5 weeks... this is my first gain since January. I have to get back on track. I was ready, I had a healthy breakfast, had a sensible lunch packed and even a few healthy snacks. I worked until 6:30, by the time I was home, it was pretty late, I had laundry to do so I picked up a pizza. Tuesday started off strong, breakfast, snacks and lunch ready to go. I wasn't ready for the candy bars that were sitting in the office when I got out of the classroom. And before you knew it, I ate three and two bags of chips. What the heck??? I lost it and binged. Wednesday was just as bad, except I was able to reserve and only eat two candy bars. Thursday night was another pizza night and Friday was Red Lobsters. On Saturday it was Olive Garden and Sunday morning it was Denny's.
Things are out of control. What really freaks me out, is that I can feel it in my stomach, it's bloated, I am uncomfortable and feel sluggish. Yet, I keep doing it. I honestly had to ask myself, what are you doing? I was only 3 measly pounds away from losing 65 pounds yet, I am eating like I have nothing to lose.
I am stressed, I am working on getting back into the groove of things but it really freaks me out to see how easy it was to fall back into old habits.
For an even bigger reality check, I weighed myself this evening and I nearly feel over
I have gained 7 pounds since 09/06. Yea, look at the dates on those photo's. What the heck is going on?
I'm gonna tell you, I have been careless, I didn't work out at all last week and I am not counting calories. VACATION is over (not that I was on one)!!! Momma is back and I have a lot to get a handle on.
I'm working on getting back into a routine and balance. I am not going to beat myself up, it is scary that I allowed myself to slip so far into a downward spiral but regardless, I have come a long way this year. I love myself and I will find the balance, after all, I want to be healthy. This is a life long commitment and this is only a small hurdle in the road.
My Goals for September (from this moment forward):
1. Drink 8 glasses of water a day
2. Track everything I eat
3. Exercise 4 days a week
One meal at a time, one day at a time! 2010 is my year and I am going to ROCK it!
