I don't even know where to begin. Clearly, I have not been committed to making my health a priority in the last 6 weeks. Somewhere between traveling for 5 weeks, coming home, accepting a FULL TIME JOB (YEA... I am no longer unemployed!), working 40-50+ hours a week, becoming a traveling taxi for a teen, catching up on chores at home, working on big projects and breathing... I have not gotten back into a routine of eating healthy or working out. I just can't seem to balance the tight rope... I want to do good, I say I am gonna do it but then there just doesn't seem to be enough time in the day to plan my meals, count calories or even to jump on my bike and ride.
Instead, I find myself day dreaming about losing weight... beating myself up because I have gained roughly 12 pounds of 62 pounds that I've lost. I am back in the hustle of bustle of everyday life and I finding that I have easily put myself on the back burner. I never intended for it to happen that way.
Even while traveling, I kept up my workouts... now, I was eating out every meal but I still worked out 5 days a week. I've been home since 9/4 and honestly, I have worked out only 3 or 4 times?!?!?! Not only have I not been working out, I am still grabbing food on the go, breakfast and lunch. Not only is it food on the go, it has turned into burgers, fries and greasy fried tacos.
I don't want to give in, I just have to find the balance. Most importantly, I need to stop beating myself and celebrate what I have still accomplished. I am still at 50 pounds lost and I have not smoked since 1/4/10 ... that is 9 months! WOW!
I want to thank everyone for encouraging and supporting me. Your feedback, comment and support means so much. I am going to take the challenge presented by many of you and prioritize my goals.
When I began my blog on Jan 1st 2010, my goal was to become healthy. I didn't have a plan however I committed to blogging. I haven't been blogging (partly because I am super duper busy ( I have traveled to 3 states this week, YIKES, while also trying to fit in my sons football game) and also because I don't want to acknowledge that I am not doing whats best for my health.
In the beginning, I committed to blogging about the good, the bad and the ugly... this just happens to be part of the ugly and I will begin to blog again on a daily basis... the good, the bad and the ugly... accountability!
One meal at a time, One day at a time. My journey continues...
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I think that it's an incredible accomplishment that you were able to kick smoking. I'm glad that your aim is to focus on the positive. You've made great strides in improving your heath, so be proud of yourself, and just keep moving on toward your goal. :)
ReplyDeleteLife is always going to put some roadblock in your way. It's all up to you in how you move past it. :)
Congratulations on your wonderful accomplishments!
Erin, thank you for the support and helping me to see the positive!
ReplyDeleteI stumbled upon your blog through a friends blog. First of all CONGRATULATIONS on the 50 pound reduction at the same time you stopped smoking! I'm honestly impressed.
ReplyDeleteJust quickly, I used to weigh 300 pounds, lost 120 - gained 10-20 back (it goes up and down between the 10lbs) No way was I going to let more weight creep back on and I sense from your entry you feel the same way about that 50! Again, I don't even know you yet I'm extremely proud of you! =)
I know with time, you are going to find that balance to make this work. I'm with you on that path, looking at how to make everything work so I can continue my road to better health. I wish you the best and I KNOW you will find a way to make this happen.
I'll be following your blog, hope you don't mind! =)
Oh it's so good to hear from you! I'm glad you're getting back to the blogging and accountability. And that 50 lbs is just fantastic...it takes a lot of work and dedication and you've just done terrific. :)
ReplyDeleteI find when I'm struggling or have stopped working as hard for a while it seems way too hard / daunting to just jump back in at full speed. What I do is commit to something low that I know I can make time for. Ie... a 10 minute walk after / before / during your lunch. Or wherever that fits in your day. If you make 10 minutes 3x a day there's a 30 min workout. Plus we all know that if you find 10 min that 10 will expand into 20, 30 or 40 because you remind yourself of how much you actually love doing that.
ReplyDeleteAs for food...again set the sights small... no more snacking, or no more fries if you're eating fast food.
Don't worry you'll find your grove again and don't beat yourself up over the 12 lbs... yeah you'll have to lose them again but re-losing sucks and is always a good reminder when you start to wander off the path in the future.
Don't forget you're amazing and have done so much! Don't focus on the bad :)
I would be so glad to see you blogging again Steph, you were my orginal inspiration for starting my blog.
ReplyDeleteYou can do this and you know we are all behind you.
Lots of hugs
xx
lesley
Good job on the smoking. And to have lost weight while quitting smoking is just flat out amazing. I can imagine that it's easy to throw off blogging with your busy schedule. Maybe you could start just making sure that you blog what you ate each day even if you don't have time to do anything else. That would also serve to make you think about what you're eating.
ReplyDeleteNot smoking is HUGE!!! Celebrate that, and get over the small hiccup with the weight loss. You're still aware and still care. You'll move forward with the weight loss when the time is right for you.
ReplyDeleteYou quit smoking and lost weight! It's hard to stay on track, but sending encouragement from New York. A first step might be just a few days without fries to start getting back on track.
ReplyDeleteI'm proud of you and I don't even know you! I found you just today while perusing a bunch of different blogs. 50 pounds is awesome - focus on what you've accomplished, not the tiny setbacks that are inevitable in life. On the journey to good health, we've got to learn how to get back on the wagon when we fall off - it makes us stronger - so think of it as a lesson learned! I bet you feel a million times better having written this blog - I know I always do. Good luck to you!
ReplyDeleteFirst the good, congratulations on not smoking! That is a tremendous accomplishment...I should know...I can't seem to do it and it would be the biggest benefit to my health I could ever do for myself. So great job...you've done it!
ReplyDeleteNow the ugly...I'm where you are right now. I'd lost 34 pounds on SP and now I've let about 8 pounds creep (well, not really, I know I'm doing it!) back on. I don't know what gives. I think maybe I've become lazy again and I'm not in that happy place I once was way back when I started the journey. I know I just need to start again and so do you! We can't and won't let anymore weight "creep" back on to ourselves! I'm Lisa170 on SP and I'll be checking in with you to see what you are doing to get back on track. Interesting...I came to you tonight for motivation and I found that we are both struggling. That in itself is motivating for me to get moving...every body has a tough life and losing weight doesn't just happen for anyone. We need to make it happen! We can do this and we can never give up!
Good luck to you! Wish me well too!
Lisa
Hi, I'm a newbie here but I just had to tell you how impressed I am. You've quit smoking AND lost that much weight?! Congratulations! Sounds like you're committed, despite those bumps that we all hit from time to time. Best of luck to you!
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